Everybody feels like they’ve got something to prove

I feel as though most people in their 20s are wanting to prove that they can do things on their own. They can be independent. Thrive without the support and protection they’ve had most of their lives.
And then theres me: the only thing I want to prove is my asshole ex stepfather wrong – that I will be successful, find love, and be happy. He always said I was too ambitious and my head was in the clouds he’d laugh and say I was too dumb to get into college. Now that I’m doing well and haven’t spoken to him in over two years he evidently won’t stop bragging about his daughter whose just oh so driven and successful, he even tells people he helps me pay for college! That really makes my blood boil, since I moved out six years ago he hasn’t ever given me anything more than a $20 here and there…pay for my college. What a joke. He has no right to claim responsibility for any of my success.
The fact that I’m thriving right now is because of my own merit and resiliency, the love of my mother, support from my friends, and the fact that I got away from that man as soon as I had the chance. Thats it.

I don’t feel like I need to prove that I can survive on my own because I always have and I know I always will. Until I meet my maker of course, but thats an entirely different topic. All I want to prove is that I can be successful AND help people, that I am fucking smart and all those years of him telling me I’m nothing meant nothing.
But is that healthy? To have such a big part of your driving force be wanting to prove someone wrong?
Isn’t that allowing someone have just as much control over you as wanting to do things in order to appease them? I suppose there are worse things in the world.


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